I have not been on much lately. I pop in and out sometimes. The Dr is still trying to find the right "cocktail" of meds for my ADD/Bipolar. (He said yesterday it may be Treatment Resistance Depression; TRD - if you add a "u" in there, I think thats what it should be called! yep, t*u*r*d) To keep the medications straight, I bought a pill keeper with the days of the week. Each little open slot looks like it has tiny candy or Tic Tacs in it with all the different colors. (I have to keep it hid from my grandchildren.) Some days I just don't feel like climbing the stairs to the office where the computer is. This last new med, a mood stabilizer (Lamictal), made me have a very bitter taste in my mouth and nausea like I haven't had since my last pregnancy 35 years ago. I didn't exactly want to read or think about food. I came off that one 2 days ago. The good news is that it is getting better. The bad news is that the one replacing it (Lithium) can cause the same thing. I can't start the new one until all bad taste & nausea are gone. It will probably be a few more days. He gave me Phenergan but it knocks me for a loop, so I've only taken one. I miss eating, I miss food, I miss reading recipes, I miss cooking, I miss my KITCHEN and I miss RE. The ADD medication was stopped until the new medication starts working in several weeks. That was THE medicine that I did like! I'll get it back, it will just take a while. On the brighter side of things, my daughter who is 30, went last week to see the same Dr. She got the same diagnosis. There is a genetic link in mental health. I had long knew something wasn't quite right. She had struggled in school, my other two did not. (although, I do wish, just to be sure, they would be tested too. My older daughter shows a lot of OCD symptoms.) She was tested but was not given the ADD diagnosis. If she had, school would have been so much easier. (I held her back a grade. She had the grades to pass but she did not have the maturity of her peers.) I have to give it to her though. Even with the ADD and no medication, she was able to go to college and graduate with a diploma in Criminal Justice. She told me two days after starting her medication for ADD that she felt so much better. She said that even her husband noticed a difference. Now that is a reason for me to celebrate!
Another good thing to come out of this is that I have lost a few pounds. When I get back cooking I hope I don't gain it all back. (I know I will! Shame on AR for all those wonderful recipes and pictures.) It is beautiful here in Georgia today, cold but very sunny and I love the sunshine! Looking out, if you did not know it was cold, you might think that it is Spring. Spring can't come soon enough for me. It always helps me feel better. There is a long long list of things to be done around the house, inside and out, that are just waiting for those warm days. I know it can't be long because my grandchildren are already practicing with their ball teams. Gardening is not my thing. I have tried and tried over the years but I just can't get the hang of it, however, I am thinking of trying to grow fresh herbs. (I did sweet basil in a clay pot last year and it did wonderful.) Spring planting can't be far now.
I think I'll go down now and say "Hi" to the kitchen, maybe peek in the 'fridge and see if I can stay in there a while (the kitchen not the 'fridge)......maybe tomorrow I can cook.