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Year of "Firsts" 
Jul. 15, 2012 6:30 pm 
Updated: Jan. 4, 2014 11:46 am
Well, my friends, I have made it through the year of "Firsts". As of July 13th, one full year has passed since my Love passed away. I was able to survive my "First" night sleeping without him, my "First" morning alone, our "First" wedding anniversary apart, our "First" Thanksgiving and Christmas apart, his birthday then mine and all the little "Firsts"in between.......all due to the love and care of dear friends and family.

I have survived ALL of the "Firsts"!!!

I actually feel a calming of my spirit, knowing that there will be no more "Firsts" waiting around the corner to devour me. I will forever love and miss my dear Russell, but when I sit with our children and reminisce, it will be with a bit of ease in my heart. We will be able to smile and laugh about his silliness, his kindness, his love and his infectious grin.

Jul. 15, 2012 6:44 pm
I don't think I could get over the loss of my wife.
Jul. 15, 2012 6:47 pm
Eake, so nice to hear from you. Have thought of you often and it is nice to see you here again!!
Jul. 15, 2012 6:53 pm
Why is this your last blog? When I read the post on the Buzz. I thought you were leaving AR. I hope that isn't the case.
Jul. 15, 2012 7:00 pm
atta girl eake. go get 'em!
Jul. 15, 2012 7:05 pm
I am glad you are feeling more settled with the firsts behind you. Holding on to fond memories will give you strength to meet the challenges of the "seconds". I wish you and your family the best along your journey.
Jul. 15, 2012 7:07 pm
Don't you just love memories? (Even when they are bad ones, they ease with time.) You know now that all Russell would want is for you to laugh and love. Your family must be such a great comfort. I love your sentence about your cooking tragedy! Nice to hear from you, EAKE.
Jul. 15, 2012 9:50 pm
I love this! I do hope this 2nd year is better for you.
Jul. 16, 2012 12:06 am
I am so sorry - please get on with your life - I think this is very sad and not sure what to say but "Gods Blessings" to you and your family
Jul. 16, 2012 12:13 am
May I ask how he died ?
Jul. 16, 2012 12:22 am
Please do not leave us
Jul. 16, 2012 12:23 am
We love you !!!
Jul. 16, 2012 1:31 am
EAKE, I am so glad you have this year of firsts behind you. I can only imagine the tremendous strength that has taken! The love you shared with Russell is truly inspirational, and I am so glad that you can share your memories and laugh with your children and your friends. You and Cindy Lepp have both been in my prayers every night this past year, as you have both faced these firsts after a heart wrenching loss. Much love to you, my friend :)
Jul. 16, 2012 2:37 am
I am so happy to hear from you Eake. I'm glad you are making it one step at a time. I can't even imagine the strength it took for you. Thank goodness for friends and family. I will pray for continued strength and peace for you.
Deb C 
Jul. 16, 2012 3:24 am
Thank Goodness for wonderful memories to cherish to help us through such difficult times. Hugs to you and your family.
Jul. 16, 2012 4:04 am
We have missed you, Eake. I have thought of you and yours often and said prayers for you in this past year that has been so different and difficult. Maybe the days ahead bring a new sense of peace for you all. Hugs to the family of Eake...
Jul. 16, 2012 5:35 am
Glad to hear you're holding up; I know how hard it is. But time really does have a way of turning sobs to sighs, and then even to smiles, doesn't it? Hold on to all the wonderful memories.
Jul. 16, 2012 5:44 am
I remember my Mom's "firsts" without my Dad and her husband of 50 years. Very tough. May you find all those memories comforting and the stories you share help ease the loss.
Jul. 16, 2012 6:18 am
Eake, you and your family have been in my prayers and I miss seeing you on the buzz. Hugs!
Jul. 16, 2012 7:06 am
I think of you often Eake. Please stay.
Jul. 16, 2012 7:57 am
Eake-my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jul. 16, 2012 8:07 am
Wow.....I cannot imagine how tough this has been :( Just want you to know that I think of you and Russell every time I see a hummingbird and actually named one of my tiny visitors after your hubby. (Hope he wouldn't mind) Love to you and your family. PS i still stop in to check on your hubby's FB page to see what's is going on and it always warms my heart to read the loving tributes and memories XO
Jul. 16, 2012 1:41 pm
As always EAKE, glad to "see" you! I can't imagine what you have been through this year. Glad you feel some calm. Maybe we can get together soon.
Jul. 16, 2012 2:44 pm
I'm sorry about your loss, but grateful you have got past these tough times. May God bless you and your family.
Jul. 16, 2012 3:03 pm
So glad you are feeling a bit of peace. Welcome back.
Jul. 17, 2012 11:41 am
You have my sympathy Eake. It's been 19 years since I was widowed, but I think of him every day. We were married 36 yrs., and had 4 children. You can't forget, but you can pick up a new life, and move on .I remarried, and gained 5 step children, and 5 step grandchildren. I'm grateful that God blessed me with a new life.I will always think of my Doug, but he's tucked away in my heart for safe keeping.Some days the memories take me back, but I refuse to dwell on the past, and look forward to my future.I wish you good luck in your future endeavors, wherever it takes you.
Jul. 17, 2012 1:11 pm
How nice to see you again. I have though of you so often over this past year. Getting through that first year is the hardest part. I felt the same way you do and for the most part it is true, but then a momentous event, like our daughter's wedding or the birth of our granddaughters and that void is right there again, but it does fill in more easily. I like to feel he is still with me, just not physically and shares my joys and sorrows even though he isn't here to hug me.
Jul. 17, 2012 2:32 pm
God bless you, Eake and family! Many of us absolutely have walked in your shoes of "firsts", so you know that we really do feel your pain. Thank you for trusting us with your feelings. Foodies are the world's best friends! We are here for you and each other. Love from Cathy Myers in SoCal.
Jul. 17, 2012 6:56 pm
Eake, your strength has come shining through with his light to guide you. I hope and pray that now, with this 'first' year behind you... the next years will be nothing but a celebration of memories created by the two of you, with very little sorrow.
Jul. 18, 2012 6:25 pm
EAKE, I have thought of you so many times over this year. So glad to "see" you here. It sounds like things are in perspective. Not easy for sure. If we learned anything from your story and Cindy's, it is that we should never take a day or a minute for granted. You remain in my thoughts.
Jul. 19, 2012 2:05 pm
Eake, just wanted to let you know that your inner strength will see you through the tough days. Some- time all you can do is take one step at a time, but remember your family and friends are there for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jul. 19, 2012 5:26 pm
Eake, it is so good to see you back on AR. I share your memories of "firsts" as I lost my love of 50 5 years ago. I miss his warm hugs as much as anything else. Please come back often as this is a loving, supportive group who will always be here to pick you up!! Love ya----Ginny
Jul. 20, 2012 12:33 pm
God bless you. I know this will help someone.
Jul. 21, 2012 9:55 am
Way to go Eake! So happy that you are feeling peace. We were just talking w/ my FIL last night about how this year has/will be full of firsts. I dread the holidays b/c I know it will be especially hard, but thankful that things are looking up and we are all getting used to this new, harsh "normal". Again, I am so thankful you are doing well. Hugs!
Jul. 22, 2012 5:30 am
What a great attitude you have. I survived my "firsts" after my parents died. My mom passed away almost 20 years later after my dad. I still miss them but have fond memories. God bless you!
Sep. 12, 2012 3:49 pm
Aww,.... You almost made me cry :'(. I'm so sorry for your loss! I can't imagine losing a spouse. I'm not yet married, but just seeing how much my parents love each other, I know each one would be devastated. I hope and pray that the Lord Jesus will comfort you in your sorrow!
Mar. 23, 2013 9:34 am
Jan. 4, 2014 11:46 am
Thinking of you today, Eake. I hope that you are still doing well. We miss you on AR.
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