I was in the new Target store here in Albuquerque, when it occurred to me that I needed to buy some birthday cards for all of the birthdays in May. It seems like just about everyone I know is born in either May or September. So as I selected a card for
each person on my list, I was heading out of the birthday card area and on the end cap were Mother's Day cards.
I felt my eyes tear up as I realized that I should select what will be my mom's last Mother's Day card. My mom, like so many other people's moms, has Alzheimer's. She is in the final stages of the disease.
My mom does not know me when I go to Illinois and visit her. She sometimes shies away from my contact. She has not known for the longest time that I am her daughter or even that she had a daughter. The doctor told my dad at his last visit, that there
is not much time left for her to live.
I thought about all of those years where purchasing a Mother's Day card was more of a requirement. You know the drill, if you do not get the card there in time, you are in deep trouble. So, I would cavalierly pick out a card for my mother from her daughter,
see if it was basically acceptable, and mailed it without much additional forethought. I was so busy, that I did not have time to pick out the perfect card that described what she meant to me.
Today, I put a lot of thought into my selection. I could hardly see as the tears and my mascara made their way down my cheeks. I thought about getting her a card that told her exactly how I felt, but she would not understand. I thought about getting
her a card and telling her she was the best mother, but she does not care. So, I settled on a card with a brightly colored front page and a simple text that told her simply that "I love you".
I know I am not the only person who is either in my shoes, or has been in my shoes. We lost my Armando's mom last May 25th to Alzheimer's so not getting her a card this year was equally hard.
Both Armando and I would give anything to have our mother's arms giving us a good hard hug, and a kiss from their lips. It is an impossibility for either mother. So, today, I get my card ready to be sent to my mom's lovely nursing home in Illinois from
me in New Mexico. I know someone will read the card to her and then place it next to her on her small dresser with the bright front facing her.
So to all of you who read this, who are in our shoes, my prayers go out to you this Mother's Day. If you are not in my shoes, give good consideration to the type of card that you send your mother. Make sure that it conveys the love and gratitude that
you have for her. Mothers do not last forever and one day you will be buying your last Mother's Day card as well. I hope you are not in much pain over the procedure.
God Bless everyone who reads this, and if you can, please give your mom an extra hug from me. I pray that she can return the favor. Savor those hugs and kisses from your mom as they are only available for a limited time. Happy Mother's Day.