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Still searching for anwers 
Jun. 15, 2009 8:17 pm 
Updated: Jun. 20, 2009 4:53 am
so much to tell, so little to say. it's been a full week since her 2 operations. i know so many of you have been thru these trying times and held up better than i have. i try to maintain for my daughters the resolve i've always shown in their mishaps. this is so different, i feel like my world has been stopped and spun counter-clockwise. ok...small victories today--- they took the fiber-optic tube out of her head, the neurosurgeon said her ICP, was stable. her vitals are very good. she has not opened her eyes yet. they are doing another ct scan, mri, and ultra-sound this evening. hopefully test results will be in and they give something to build on tomorrow. she has not been producing blood platets on her own, so last night her platets dropped to 23,000. they gave her more and something to also help conglague her blood. the other problem is she has blood clots in her right arm. to dissipate those they suggest heparin (a blood thinner) which would work contrary to the platets. i asked the nurse, give me the facts, good or bad. she says the team of doctors don't know why she is losing /not producing her own platets. claire has never smoked, drank, and very rarely ate meat. no history of high blood pressure. heck she only cursed is when i showed up late. very late. her doctors are as confused as i am. i'm so aggravated. a bolt of lightning..she hit the lottery?  sorry for a senseless rant. i am keeping a journal, someone suggested that. i look back at the earlier pages of it and find succeses. i recommend it for any other folks going thru these trying times. one day seems like forever sometimes. i love all of you and i cannot begin to express my gratitude for all your kind thoughts, prayers, and guidance. thanks again to all for such an outpouring of love in my time of need.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:24 pm
Claire remains in my thoughts, Gderr, as do you and your daughters. I can't imagine what you are going through, but please continue to have faith. Claire can feel your love, be sure of that. Hugs.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:28 pm
Oh Gderr, my hearts hurts for you, my friend. I was out of town, no Internet and it really bugged me, worrying about Claire and how you all are doing with this. Believe me, you and the girls are in my thoughts constantly and I pray that Claire wake up and smile for you soon. Please feel our arms around you...we care deeply!
Jun. 15, 2009 8:33 pm
My prayers to you and your family.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:36 pm
Gderr I am at a loss on how to express how very deeply your troubles have moved me. I pray often for your trial to be over and the best possible outcome for your dear wife. Peace and strength for your family. ((hugs))
Jun. 15, 2009 8:40 pm
You are strength personified. I have always liked you, and now I can that I admire you. Go hug your girls, and get hugged back.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:41 pm
Gderr, taking care of yourself as well, I hope. I know how easy it is to forget.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:42 pm
Gderr, my heart goes out to you and your family. I wish you all the very best and hope Claire wakes up soon! You are in my thoughts :)
Jun. 15, 2009 8:45 pm
Stay strong Gderr. I know it's hard, having dealt with similar situations with both of my parents. I know it's different when it's your spouse. Thanks for keeping us updated. I do hope you get some answers soon.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:47 pm
More prayers coming your way. Keeping good thoughts about her recovery. Talk to her. My brother (the R.N.) says to talk to her he said she will still hear you. cyber hugs to you and the girls.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:52 pm
I will continue to keep you and yours in my prayers. Again, let me know if there's anything at all I can do. Hang tough.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:53 pm
I can only echo the thoughts of those who have already posted. Thanks for the update. Keeping a journal and blogging is good therapy as in it gives you an outlet. Write the good, the bad and the ugly so to speak. Much love and prayers continue. A cyber hug to all.
Jun. 15, 2009 8:54 pm
I know words can't help you right now, but know that you and your family are in my thoughts!!
Jun. 15, 2009 8:56 pm
Gderr, hold her habd and talk to her. It doesn't matter about what, just talk. Claire will hear you! I pray for good results with the new tests! God Bless you. Read her the Bible. It will give her strength to help herself get well! Take care of yourself and your babies!
Jun. 15, 2009 9:02 pm
I check each day, hoping for an update. I agree with the poster above me..(Avon Lady)just talk to her and keep that positive energy going. God Bless You and yours.
Jun. 15, 2009 9:11 pm
Gderr I continue to pray for Claire and your family. Thank you for taking the time to keep us updated. Stay strong and have faith. God Bless you and your family.
Jun. 15, 2009 9:14 pm
(((((((((derr family)))))))))
Jun. 15, 2009 9:15 pm
Keep talking to her, gderr. She knows everything. We are all holding on for you and your family.
Jun. 15, 2009 9:26 pm
Still thinking about you and your family. Praying for Claire every chance I get. May God give you guidance and the strength to face this. Remember, he rarely gives you more that you can handle and if he does, he gives your friends. We are all here pulling for your family. Thank you for thinking of us and sharing. I posted earlier on the exchange and I think you'll agree: "I just re-read GDerr's latest blog (Baby Steps) as well as all of the comments. I am literally sitting here in tears. I am amazed at the outpouring of support from complete strangers. Just one more reason why I love AR and the members. We have our ups and downs as well as our ins and outs, but at the end of the day, we are one big beautiful family. Proof that too many cooks do not spoil the soup. Beautiful. Amazing. All of you." God's blessings my friend.
Jun. 15, 2009 9:32 pm
God bless you guys. My heart hurts for you. Keep the faith; with God nothing is impossible. I will continue to pray for you, your wife, and your family.
Jun. 15, 2009 10:11 pm
Thanks for taking the time to update us. Your family is on the prayer list at my church and at my Mom's church. My Mom also has a Monday night prayer chain where each person "goes on the wall" and prays for an hour, then calls the next person on the list and that person does the same. Stay strong.
Jun. 15, 2009 10:44 pm
Gderr thanks for keeping us updated. It's great news that they took the tube out and that Claire's vitals are good. Baby steps, see, each day a little more. Tomorrow will be better too. (((big hugs))) take care of yourself too, Claire needs you to be healthy for her. Love from Oregon.
Jun. 15, 2009 11:36 pm
Hi gderr, May God give you the strength for Claire, the girls and yourself. God bless and God speed to you all and may God keep Claire in his arms and help her get through this.
Jun. 15, 2009 11:57 pm
I hope you say the same things to Claire that you write here. She can hear you and you express yourself so eloquently and lovingly. Hold on to you faith. God will get you and your girls through this. God Bless you all.
Jun. 16, 2009 12:07 am
Thanks again for the updates, gderr! It sounds like you are being strong and smart, and also trying to take care of yourself - keep it up! We are all pulling for you and Claire, all day - every minute. ♥
Jun. 16, 2009 12:13 am
Thoughts and prayers for you Gderr, Claire and your girls too, one day at a time!!
Jun. 16, 2009 12:27 am
A journal is wonderful thing to have during these times.Have did that once myself. Lots of help to not only me but to family members as well as doctors too.You have a doctor for this and a doctor for that and it's hard to keep up with it all. You and your family are in my prayers. yaba
Jun. 16, 2009 3:39 am
Sorry I can't be there to just give a hug--a virtual one will have to do! Your family is in my thoughts and prayers!
Jun. 16, 2009 3:51 am
We all continue to pray for your beautiful family. May you feel God's love surround you and find comfort and strength.
Jun. 16, 2009 4:02 am
None of us truly understand the importance of family until a life is hanging in the balance. Your situation just tears at my heart. Know that we care and that we are continually praying for each of you! Stay strong.
Jun. 16, 2009 4:12 am
Gderr, Claire, you and the girls are still in my thoughts and prayers. Keep staying strong. Take care. ♥
Jun. 16, 2009 4:30 am
I pray for her & your family every morning on my walk. And, think of you both often, God Bless!
Jun. 16, 2009 4:58 am
Still praying. ((hugs))
Jun. 16, 2009 5:28 am
praying for a miracle
Jun. 16, 2009 5:43 am
Still keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))
Jun. 16, 2009 6:05 am
You and your lovely family will remain in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that the doctors can figure out what is causing this. (((hugs)))
Jun. 16, 2009 6:34 am
We are continuing to pray and send love your families way gderr... BIG HUGS
Jun. 16, 2009 6:41 am
I sent Claire a card yesterday gderr and hope she gets it soon.I would like to go to the hospital this week if I can.I am still praying for a total healing and restoration for her.
Jun. 16, 2009 6:57 am
Stay positive gderr, trusting God to increase your strength & peace in this. Praying for Claire, her medical team/for and your girls!! I mailed her a card yesterday too....hang in there! God bless you...
Jun. 16, 2009 7:09 am
Hi gderr, still sending postitive thoughts and prayers your way. Sounds like you are staying strong. Hope your girls are doing okay. Keep having faith. ((hugs)) Cara
Jun. 16, 2009 9:50 am there anything any of us can do being so far away. I remember some of my family "banking" at a blood bank in Calif. for a family member in Texas. I'd be more than willing if this is neccessary and can be done for Claire. OR, anything else that can be done "long distance".
Jun. 16, 2009 10:24 am
I'm glad you are able to keep giving us these updates. Stay Strong and know that you are in all of our hearts and prayers through these trying times. Keep your head up and your optimism strong. ♥
Jun. 16, 2009 1:49 pm
thanks for the update.....praying that each day is better than the day before.....
Jun. 16, 2009 2:23 pm
Thank you for taking the time to update us. Praying each day for Claire, you and your daughters.
Jun. 16, 2009 3:02 pm
I have a 1-1/2 hour commute to work and I spent most of it this morning thinking about Claire and praying for her, you, and your girls. Keep concentrating on the small successes. These are God's miracles. Thank you so much for keeping us posted. Hugs to you and your family!
Jun. 16, 2009 3:19 pm
Are blood donations possible, for Claire?(like Pat asked) If you have a chance, maybe ask at the hospital and let us know? The "Gift of Life" I always see that commercial!
Jun. 16, 2009 5:17 pm
Whatever we can do from a distance - let us know! We can send care packages! Most of us can actually cok.
Jun. 16, 2009 5:43 pm
Continue talking to her. She can hear you even if she can't respond. It is so very frustrating waiting, isn't it? Take it day by day, hour by hour, or even minute by minute; whatever it takes. You are blessed to have family with you. Lean on them for support as they lean on you. Continued prayers to you and yours.
Jun. 16, 2009 10:09 pm
Jun. 17, 2009 4:52 am
Thanks so much for taking the time from Claire to up date us on what's going on. I can't tell you how any times a day you & your family pop into my mind. I guess it God reminding me to pray for ya'll. Post when you can. I check daily for an update, as many of us do.
Jun. 17, 2009 8:35 am
I've been thinking of you and Claire a lot this week. ((hugs))
Jun. 17, 2009 10:10 am
Hello again Gderr, hoping that you are finding comfort in the notes being left here for you. Please know that we are still praying for you and all of your family. It is an awesome thing to know that we serve a very BIG God, who loves His children so very much! He is able to do all things. Sometimes He allows circumstances in our lives to cause us to be on our knees before Him, in all humility and submission. I am guessing that you and your girls have spent a great deal of time on your knees recently, and He does hear the prayers. Earlier someone suggested that you read to Claire from the Bible - I would like to reiterate that and encourage you to do so as much as possible. God's Word is SO powerful. Both to the hearer and to the reader. Don't stop - no matter how you are feeling. We love you all; just keep praising Him for all that He has given! Still praying for a complete recovery for your dear wife. ~Decaf
Jun. 17, 2009 4:18 pm
Gderr, till keeping you, Claire and your girls in my prayers. Thanks for the updates.Wish I could give you all warm hugs but please know you are loved and in Gods hands. Stay strong.
Jun. 17, 2009 5:23 pm
Gderr, glad you are finding help in looking back in your journal and viewing comments on your blog(cyber journal). Sending healing prayers and good thoughts to you, Claire and girls.
Jun. 17, 2009 6:46 pm
Gderr.. I don't believe we've ever talked and in a way i feel like i'm intruding here.. but I wanted to tell you that, even though I don't know you or your family in any way, i am deeply touched by your posts. My family went through a trying time twice with my mother. First with heart problems and by-pass surgery and then many many years later with her death. What you're going through and feeling I know is very different because she is your wife and partner in this life. I just want you to know that my soul aches for what your family is going through. You all will be in my thoughts and like so many others have said.. if there's anything you need that any of us can provide.. just call on us.
Jun. 18, 2009 2:32 pm
Continuing to pray for Claire, her doctors & nurses, your children & you, Gderr.
Jun. 18, 2009 4:20 pm
Gdear, I'm glad you are journaling. There's so much information & emotions that you are having to process. I hope you have family/good friends with you everyday, so you can receive their emotional support (& they can bring you food & water, & make sure you get some rest). Your daughters lean on you & you need to be able to lean on others also. Continue to care for yourself, so you can take care of Claire & the girls. ((hugs)) (Be sure to hug often ~ loving human touch boosts your immune system & de-stresses you! And always assume Claire can understand every word you say, & can feel your loving touch.)
Jun. 18, 2009 5:09 pm
gderr's blog reminds everyone - one of the best things anyone can do is give blood and blood platlets regularly. They really do save lives, as the Red Cross says. Thank you for the update on your family.
Jun. 18, 2009 7:18 pm
Stay strong and keep talking to your wife. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jun. 18, 2009 7:25 pm
Best of luck, gderr. I never really followed blogs on here until you started talking with us - I hope it gives you strength & hope!!
Jun. 19, 2009 6:14 pm
I am keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Jun. 20, 2009 4:53 am
Thanks for the update. My friends and I will continue in prayer, believing for God to resolve ALL of Claire's health issues. Take care for yourself and stay strong. We are all behind you, Claire, and your family. kdstreet
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i enjoy cooking. the wife considers it a chore. i hate yard work. she loves it. we mesh. i love bass fishing, reading, music, baseball, college football and my family.
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i love vegetables, soups, and italian cusine.
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holidays are a big deal! christmas is my time to shine. i try to add a new recipe each year, but the family demands pretty much the same menu. kinda frustrating!
My cooking triumphs
i cared for my mother in law about 3 months when she had shattered her shoulder. i didn't work, so money was tight. we survived on only wife's paycheck during that time. ma-n-law had diet restrictions. it was difficult to make cheap, nutritious meals everyone would eat. we prospered as a family and learned alot about each other's strenghths and weaknesses.
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a stove top fire. i explained that one already. the grill falling over was another one...oops grill season is here! i love the tragedies...those are the ones that i'll always remember!
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